After a nice morning of sun bathing on the women’s sun deck, I headed back to the dorms and I stumbled upon a fox. More like he stumbled upon me. The women’s sun deck is located further past the cafe, up in the mountains. There is a sacred women’s Deva circle for prayer and ceremony and the sun deck is just beyond the circle. I was heading back, through the Deva circle when I saw this excited little creature running straight at me. Caught up in his excitement, I don’t believe he saw me. So I called out “hello!” He stopped in his tracks. He looked up at me and stood for about 2 seconds (which seemed like forever) and then started to turn his body to go the other direction. I called out to him and said “oh you’re so cute!!” in the voice that I have been using to talk to every animal here at The Tree: deer, lizard, javelina, tarantula, etc, etc. He turned his head back at me for another moment and then turned and scampered off through the field with his tail like a feather being tossed up and down behind him. Then, it turned from sunny to dark as the storm clouds that were over the distance mountains pushed through and dropped their heavenly raindrops onto the budding green life.
I snapped this picture with my phone just in time! See the little fox between the path up ahead?
I looked up info on fox as a totem animal:
“If you have a fox totem, learning to be invisible is very important in your life.
Imagine yourself blending in with your surroundings, becoming part of the background.
Be very still and quiet.
Through practice you can be unnoticed even at a party or in a crowd.”
Lately, I have been visualizing myself blending into my environment at The Tree. There is so much wildlife awakening in this monsoon season. I like to see myself as one- a part of this ecosystem- rather than as separate, human, and living within my own space created inside the environment. I feel very connected. I have been silent more and I listen to nature as I walk. I try to sense what the birds are saying, what the plants are saying, and feel the energy pulse of this thriving landscape inside of me. It seems like I have developed a deeper level of my brain that is based on instinct. It is easy to be out of touch with these instincts when we live in cities with cars, paved streets, and restaurants everywhere, etc. But something develops in the mind when living in nature. You stop living in nature, and start living WITH nature. I believe this is the essence of what authors Henry David Thoreau and Walt Emerson captured in their essays. I think this fox came to me to represent my ability to blend into nature. Becoming “invisible” (at first the fox didn’t even notice my presence) in a sense that my separate identity of being human is now dissolving and becoming just another animal living in junction with the land.
humblyraw 